• ToMyself

    Dear child who may or might have been,
    Who is and is not me,
    I look back and I think that those,
    Your years,
    Must have been so lonely and so alone,
    Even when you thought you understood all,
    Defined all.
    You were the child who was often message-boy,
    Rarely confidante,
    The only one who could not jump rope,
    Who failed to conquer the monkey bars,
    And lived with friendships of geography
    While you tried so hard not to trip over Barbie dolls
    Lying shamelessly naked on the rug.
    And yet you thought you were queen and prophet,
    You stood invincible,
    You had the audacity to jest at scars
    Even while you idolized that one kid who spent
    ___all of second grade in graffitied casts.
    I look back at the echoes of your illegible hand
    Filling up half-used diaries,
    And I do not know if I should praise you
    ___or bury you.

    Sarah, high school, north summer camp

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  • Sonai says colors from the fire determine our people’s fate. Sonai says I am too young to light the wooden ring in our people’s colors from the fire celebration. I say, I am nine years old and that makes me a woman. Father says, “Kaika, you are too young. What if the arrow drops and burns you?”

    “Well,” I say, “what if the arrow shooter misses and burns you to the ground?”

    Suddenly Father’s smile turns to a scowl, and I am sent to my family’s teepee. Later that night, when the snow white moonlight pierces my warm bright eyes, Sonai tells us it is time for our fate deciding. My mother Javen goes first. “Ah, Javen, you will be expecting soon!” Mother’s eyes fill with joy.

    Next, Akzir, my annoying older sister. “Akzir, you will have good luck!” She starts prancing around like a pony, until mother stops her.

    And finally . . . drumroll . . . me. “Ah Kaika, you will go through an adventure.” What did he mean? I couldn’t ask because he had vanished from behind the ivy green flames. Besides, nothing ever happens to me.

    WolfAWOO! Huh? AWOO! Wolves. I look up. Father is awake too. “Kaika, stay here, with your mother and sister,” he says. I knew he was out there fighting the pack of wolves. But I was worried. Last time Father fought a wolf, he ended up wounded.

    “Ahhhhhh!” What now?

    “Ahhhhhhhh!” Father! Suddenly, there is Father, hovering from a wolf’s jaws, cherry blood spilling from his face. When the wolf runs off with the last of our winter meat, I run too. I run past the trees, and onto the fragile, icy blue lake until I see the wolf. Step . . . creak . . . step . . . crack . . . step . . . crack! Then boom! As I fall into the freezing water, the wolf falls with me. I open my eyes: pain. But I see the wolf.

    The meat falls from its jaws as it falls into the darkness of the lake. I catch the meat and climb to the surface onto the icy blue frozen lake.

    Whoosh! The flaming arrow goes through the hoop. My feather earrings sway along with my porcupine dress. “All hail Kaika the Great!” my father says.

    That’s when it hits me. The colors of the fire don’t determine our fate. We do.

    I look at my wooden medal. It says: To Kaika Lavfenta Khant, for extraordinary bravery. My new pet fox prowler lays on my leg. The sunset fades as winter ends.

    THE END

    Taylor, middle school, north summer camp

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  • StairwellI’m not here,
    but I’m near.

    Don’t look for me
    because, where I am, you can’t be.

    I’m an image you can’t see.
    Do you agree??

    I’m unreal.
    I can’t even get your attention
    when I do a cartwheel.

    I’m quarantined,
    and all I ever wanted was to be seen.

    Supernatural,
    like a ghost in the dark.

    I feel like a
    fictional book.
    Why can’t you just look?

    I have an idea, a thought,
    a plan.
    I’ll chase you wherever you go, like
    Pac-Man.

    Until the day you
    observe.
    That’s the day it’ll strike
    a nerve.

    I’m hidden from everyone,
    and only you know.

    Am I a friend
    or a foe?

    When you finally notice,
    that’s when I’ll show.

    Just standing there
    waiting for you to say “Hello.”

    You walk over and
    lay a hand on my shoulder.

    My true colors start to
    reveal.
    My heart and love are clear
    like a windshield.

    We are no longer foes, but lovers
    with BIG hearts
    that can be seen.

    Julia, high school, Badgerdog alum

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  • GreatWalllWhen I asked the Great Wall of China, “How long are you?”
    The Wall twisted. Creaking noises and dust filled the air.
    It trembled and shook.
    And right in front of me, a hole opened up in the Wall.
    Dust filled the air once more.
    I peered down the hole.
    “What?” I said.
    A ruler spat out.

    Walter, middle school, south summer camp

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  • TurtlePondthe eager upturned faces of the amphibious vegetarians
    peeking morally from out of the organic murk
    the hundreds of anonymous grey minnows
    viciously darting about, trading positions like atoms
    riding on the submerged backs of their musky-shelled
    brethren
    politely expecting, staring, asking, wanting
    pushing forth their geometric little bodies
    shoving, coyly swimming at various paces
    jabbing the sunny shadows of patchy light
    meeting neck to orange-striped neck in comical aggressive embrace
    patrolling the wet sludgy perimeter
    beware of granddaddy grey, wise fishy intruder
    observing the leafy corralled island
    dunking spherical shells and limbs and nosy heads
    beneath the occasional sapphire flitting dragonfly
    dreamily watching the optical illusions of the shallow depths
    the affectionately brief nose kisses.

    Cali, ninth grade, downtown summer camp

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